January 21, 1983, 36 years to the day I got this scar. 150 stitches. The circumstances surrounding it are another story for another day, but just know it was no accident. I have long since gotten over it and forgiven the person, so please spare me the “I’m so sorry that happened to you” and the “you’re still pretty” comments - I’m okay and I know I still look good.
I think of myself at 16 years old - I had just been diagnosed with a chronic skin condition 3 years prior. Tall, gangly, four eyed, psoriasis, and now to top it all off, disfigured. I remember my beige sheepskin that I’d just bought on Delancey Street for Christmas and loved so much soaked in blood. I remember the crowd surrounding me, staring with pity, but not offering any help. I never dreamed of being a model, but before psoriasis and the scar, I always thought I could be one if I wanted to. The world before was my oyster, but now it was not, or so I thought. I spent many years having very low self-esteem. I let other people, particularly men, treat me horribly - all because of how unworthy and ugly I felt. I can’t really pinpoint when I started loving myself and things started turning around for me - one day I guess I’ll talk to a professional about it, but when I did, my life changed. Fast forward to age 50, when I modeled for Kate Spade (my first modeling gig ever) with my scar in all its glory. I am now a model, a brand ambassador, a speaker, soon to be author, and most recently, an actress - not in spite of what I once perceived as flaws, but because of them. I love my skin, I love my scar, and I got lasik surgery over 20 years ago because I was blind as a bat! I don’t know who needs to hear this today, but I’m here to let you know, by example, that no man, no woman, no scar, no illness, no circumstance can stop what God has for you. I celebrate this day and I thank God for my life! . “You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.” - Genesis 50:20 NLT
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